Life as a student...

Salam everyone. and good morning. ya lah, now its 1.18am kire wish good morning la kan. aha. Okay, lemme just straight to the point. Sem ni serious hectic dan penat. Yela yela i know bukan i sorg je student master kat sini. org lain kalau bukan budak master pun penat jugak.

Tak, i bukan nak cakap i sorg je belajar yang penat, org lain tak! Kahkah. what I'm trying to say I nak habis cepat sem ni. this is the final week. next week dah start study week. tp i ade 1 replacement kelas on 29th. 4th morning anta asignment. 4th ptg tu start 1st paper. Then 5th submit final report subjek lain. lepas tu 11th malam pukul 8-10 i ade second paper. 12th pagi pukul 8-10 ade 3rd paper.

walaupun sem ni 3 subjek, tapi semua subjek research. 3-3 buat proposal. buat research. sem ni jugak byk kerja, assignment, presentation individual. dr week 1st dah struggle. now dah week 14. through out this 14weeks, i do feel my brain mcm dah exhausted. mcm dah penat.

haritu dah defend proposal, not the real one. utk subjek. alhamdulillah semua okay. now ada 2 final presentations are coming. preparation, insyaallah dah setel. tapi, utk subjek lain, transkrip interview tak siap lagi, tak analyze, tak buat coding lagi. due ptt hantar jumaat ni tapi lecturer postponed anta la bila2 as long before paper on 11th tu. alhamdulillah.

see, life as a student ni kdg2 tons of work are coming. nak elak, nak tepis tak mungkin. kena hadapi tanpa henti2. i yang full time student pun kdg2 miserable. apatah lagi yang part time dan working kan. But, mcm lecturer i always pesan, "belajar ni invesment. Nak senang masa tua, kena susah masa muda, masa sekarang ni." Mak pulak pesan, "Mereka yang berjaya adalah org biasa yang bekerja luar biasa."

At times kadang2 i rasa i tak nak smbg PHD. cukup la sampai sini. I dah tak larat. Masa zaman degree seriously it works kerja last minit walaupun kerja banyak. Tapi zaman ni, Ya Allah last minute work mmg tak jalan. Assignment tak banyak ade 1,2 and 3 utk setiap subjek. tapi bigger one. not the small2 one mcm mase degree. kalau buat keje awal pun, u still need a lot of reading. serious, no lie. Betul la org ckp, mmg kena kuat mental dan fizikal nak perabiskan belajar ni.

True, takde bende yang sng dlm dunia ni. Bila i rasa mcm nak gv up, i look back and think. I dah habiskan 4 years utk dptkan sarjana muda i. now i habiskan 1 tahun setengah utk dptkan sarjana. 4 years dah lepas. setahun master pun dah nak habis. I ade lagi setengah tahun je. sikit je lagi. Be strong! After this, i dah habiskan semua subjek which means I fokus buat dissertation i je. anta dissertation, insyaallah boleh la grad. One step further. Itu la yg i selalu fikir utk habiskan semua ni.

I'm telling you this sebab there are ppl said I'm having fun dekat UM. Ada yang kata belajar dekat UM ni senang. Nahhh, same je cabaran dia belajar kat mane2 pun. Ni mesti sebab u saw me in Mid, OU, jalan sana sini often. yes I do. I admit that. skrg ni i suka bg reward dekat diri sendiri. cth, yeay, i dah siapkan chapter 1. lets go and eat burger bakar. 2-3 hari later plak, yeay! i dah siapkan slides presentation. Jom pergi big bad wolf books sale. kalau kita tak hargai dengan achievement diri sendiri, siapa lagi? walaupun kecil but i do appreciate myself on every effort I'm putting into.  So, bila i tak post dekat fb I tension buat kerja, kerja banyak bla bla bla. tp u guys lebih nmpk i check in dekat mall lebih byk dari I chekc in dekat library doesn't mean I tak stress. doesn't mean i takde kerja nak buat.

I'm sorry for the long post. I cume tak sabar nak habiskan sem ni. Dan, paling penting tak sabar untuk "........." Insyallah, 1 bulan je lagi tinggal. Cop2 bukan tunang atau kahwin tau. Wheeee~ Wish me luck utk final exam. Insyallah.